i have random thoughts in this head of mine

You will never believe this. i deleted s complete, long, post on here without even knowing it.
now i have to re-create it? i sure can try.

lately i have been spending all day every day in yoga pants and hoodies. if i could stay in them at work, and 24/7 you betcha i would. soo comfy.



 







welllll you know that saying "when one door closes another door opens"? well i think thats right. because after  the whole breakup and i was stuck in a rut. but then just out of the blue things started looking up. 


this place ^^ will be my new work zone. i got a new job and i cant wait! im so excited...even though i looove kohls so much, i needed more hours and this store will promise them. If you are looking for a new job go to them. they are still hiring and will be hiring for s couple more weeks. go here apply! im sure you'll get an interview!

i need to meet new people! and im hoping this new job is going to help me do that. make new friends! thats what i neeeeed!

AHHH California is so close... i hope i can still go because of this new job. im sure going to try and get some time off! tat tat tat tatted up! i willll be coming home with new tattoos, and maybe a new piercing? we'll see. i cant wait for the beach! the sun! the cute boys?! doubt it. i dont need any boys right now haha all i need is me. and Kim. and Christina. and my close/new friends, Brennan, Casey, Jamie, and my puppppppy max. hes too cute. love him!


you know i never thought i would step foot onto BYU. but sure enough i have. thanks to Brennan! haha its funny to me. good ol' BYU.

all i want to do lately is stay out late and have fun. maybe im turning into a actual teenager? i dont know. but it sure is making me freaking tired! but its been fun.

last night i was out with brennan and his friends. it was a good night (:

today i want to see casey and the good kid KODY!
i havent seen this kid in forever! i miss talking to him about everything. it'll be good to catch up! i cant wait!

i found this little cute studio apartment that i want. i want to go look at it but the dumb retailer hasnt replied to me yet. i really want to get out on my own. someday it'll happen. when the time is right.

i want to buy candles that remind me of summer. 

i want new bikinis.

i want to get in better shape and look ohhh so fiiine!

i want to go swimming so bad!

i want to go on a roadtrip that lasts forever.( whose down?)

this girl needs to take a deep breath and enjoy the now. 

well this post was completely random. but im sure you all loved it.
BYEEEE!

Shop till you drop

                           I have a problem. and its worse now that me and cody broke up. I shop. A lot. Like 300 ish in 2 days. NOT ok buuut its whatevs. I have to stop spending money. im going to California for my BIRTHDAY and i need money!!  next weekend im going to cedar city to visit CHRISTINA! whoop whoop! then in April going to California. Christmas on a beach somewhere. this year is turning around. so ya'll are probably wondering who that young chap is. His name is Brennan. and hes my friend. hes going on a mission soon! which is exciting if you're Mormon. which im not.. soo.... haha but its cool. He is a cute kid. if you need a friend go to him! but you only have like.. 5 ish months. soo hurry before he's gone! Him and Kim are adorbs huh? love her! i miss you tons. April cant come soon enough! 

Oh and i need friends.so if you read this and live in Utah county ish please lets be friends. i dont have any. and i really need more.

on the Flip side i reunited with an OLD OLD friend, from SIXTH GRADE! casey hoopes. its been 6 years since we've seen each other. it was soo good to catch up on life. goood stuff.

i need a life. a hobby. SOMETHING to do with my self. i need a better job that i can make good money and go all the places that i want to go. HELP! maybe i'll become crafty and start.. crafting. We'll see! well BYEEEE!

Sad but true

I haven't blogged in awhile is because my life has been to busy. Work was crazy, life is crazy. Relationships are crazy.

Me and Cody broke up. Its been so hard these past several weeks. My mind has been going a million times an hour. I haven't had time to just stop.

we talked for a good 3 hours About everything, and in the end we decided not to be together. But we are still going to be friends. Just not really really good ones because i still need the space.
I don't want to be completely out of his life and i can't because we have a dog together.

Poor max. he can tell something is going on. he won't let me out if his sight.

A lot has been running through my mind lately...its not fun but it is what it is.

That's why I've been absent for some time now. So yeah.. For those of you who read My blog, and were wondering what happened. That's what is going on...