Coming unto Him

You wanna know something?

Life is hard.

But that doesn't mean you have to give up. Sometimes we get to worn out and we just can't go on anymore, but do you really think our Heavenly Father would put us through these trials if He thought we couldn't make it?

Absolutely not. One trial gets us ready for the next, each step we take gets us closer to returning to Heaven. 

Live a Christ centered life. "Talk of Christ, rejoice in Christ, preach of Christ." (2 Ne. 24:26). Take every opportunity you can to share the gospel with those who surround you, so they too can have a Christ centered life.

I was lucky to get a second chance at life. After all the trials I went through, my slate got washed clean, I became new. All my sins were washed away. I will never forget that day. 

I was filled with joy, happiness, the light of Christ, that "secret" all my friends had, I was filled with. And that is what I want to give to others. As you all should too. Share what you have experienced. Help them come unto Christ. Let them know that Jesus loves them how they are. He doesn't care about your past. He doesn't care where you are right now, He wants you as you are. He loves you no matter what.

In order to come unto Christ you have to be converted. Everyone at least once will be converted, whether it's early in life or later, it will happen. Sometimes more then once, but that's okay. That's the power of the Atonement,  Once you have been converted you know what is right, and what is true. Each person needs to receive a testimony of the Lords word. Read the scriptures daily. Read them with an open mind, come ready to listen with a sincere heart. 

Elder Neil L. Anderson of the quorum of the twelve apostles speaks of the invitations of Christ in the April 2012 general conference. He says;

"His invitation is a call to daily duty. Jesus said : If ye love me, keep my commandments." "If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me." We may not be at our very best every day, but if we are trying, Jesus' bidding is full of encouragement and hope: "come into me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest."

Learning of him, coming into him, and abiding in him take daily effort. Small and simple things that bring about great things.

Our savior is a loving and forgiving savior.

Come into him " for he stands with open arms" (Mormon 6:17)

Come unto him "and offer your whole souls as an offering into him" (omni 1:26)

My friend who is serving his mission right now told me this;

CPR, just like it can save your physical life it saves your spirituality.

C- going to Church and being actively engaged in it. Optioning callings, and knowing that The Lord has called you specifically.

P- Praying. God commands us to pray to Him. Through not praying you are breaking the commandments, and therefore distancing yourself from Christ.

R- Reading the scriptures, the Book of Mormon specifically. If you gain a testimony of that, you can gain a testimony of Joseph smith, the restored gospel, and any other part of the gospel since the translation of the record.

Doing these things bring you closer to Christ, and bringing others into Christ is as simple as inviting them. invite others to come unto Christ and his atonement, repentance, baptism, receiving the gift of the Holy Ghost and enduring to the end. No effort is wasted when trying to share the gospel even if people don't accept it right away. You've planted the seed for the next person that comes along.

"Men and women who turn their lives over to God discover that He can make a lot more out of their lives then they can. He will deepen their joys, expand their vision, quicken their minds, lift their spirits, multiply their blessings, comfort their souls, and pour out peace." 

As we come unto Christ, we must surrender our worldly ways, our pride, and our selfishness. As we yield to the promptings of the Holy Ghost, we should experience a mighty change in our hearts, and become willing to submit to or accept "all things which The Lord Seeth for to inflict upon us" (mosiah 3:19)

The Book of Mormon is a handbook about the process of coming unto Christ. I want to emphasize that coming into Christ is a process; it is not a single or discrete event. It is an ongoing, continuing process throughout our lives.

"Come unto Christ, and be perfected in Him, and deny yourselves if all ungodliness" (Moroni 10:32)

This is a passage from President George Q. Cannon:

No matter how serious the trial, how deep the distress, how great the affliction, God will never desert us. He never has, and He never will. He cannot do it. It is not of His character to do so. He is an un changeable being; the same yesterday, the same today, and He will he the same throughout the eternal ages to come. We have found THAT God. We have made Him our friend, by obeying His gospel; and He will stand by us. We may pass through the fiery furnace; we shall emerge from all these trials and difficulties the better and purer of them, if we only trust in out God and keep His commandments.

How true that is. He will never leave your side. When you think you are a lone, think twice. He is there, and He always will be. Because YOU gave your life to our loving Savior. He won't leave you. not once. You are worth it.

Once we have come into Christ and found his miracle of his " covenant of peace" I think we are under obligation to help others do so, just as Paul said in that verse to the Corinthians-to live as much like He lived as we possibly can and to do as much as what He did in order that other may walk in the same peace and have this same reassurance.

You shouldn't have to go on a mission to bring people unto Christ, you should strive to do that I your daily life. Like I Said before, even if it is just planting a seed, you never know when that little seed will grow into a mature tree.

If you know this church is true, don't you want to bring others into it? Don't you want them to be saved on the last day? Don't you want them to be with their families for all eternity? I know I sure do.

By helping others come unto Him, you will find that you have come unto Him yourself.

I bear you my testimony that God lives. He is your father. You want to go home. You want to be with him. The only way you can be with him in the way you want to be is to become spotless. I bear you my testimony that Jesus is the Christ. The atonement is real. I bear you that the Holy Ghost will come to you in the service of out Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ as you bear your own testimony. 

Coming into Christ, leads to everlasting life.

[The Almost] Sister Kuchler

Well i got a new calling in the church!
You are looking at the New ward missionary!
As being a ward missionary i go and visit the less active, and non-members and teach them and do missionary things to help them come back to church. 
I also get to tag along with the sister missionaries in our stake and teach with them.

needless to say, i am beyond stoked. my calling is for six months, and then i get to go on my full-time mission to wherever the Lord puts me for 18 months.
I am feeling so blessed to receive this calling.
How luck i am to serve a part-time mission before my full-time one. i get a little sneak peak at what i will be doing and I'm so excited.

This just adds to me knowing that i am doing the right thing, by serving a mission, and being on the Lords time 100%

I have two callings, missionary prep, church, Friends who have the same goals, and morals as me, and I am a member of the church. 
I am blessed. I am blessed to have a family who, though doesn't support my decisions, they are still supporting me as their daughter. 
I am blessed to have the most amazing best friends who live so far away from me, but yet both support me more then anyone who actually lives in the same state.
I am Blessed to Have Heavenly Father trust me with his children to let me go and share his gospel with them, and befriend all of them and have them come back to his church.
I am Blessed. And i am truly thankful for all He has given me.

I absolutely know this church is true. there is no doubt in my mind. I ave had blessing galore since i have given my life to Christ, and joined his true church. and  Since i decided to go on a mission, my trials have gone through the roof, but so has my testimony.
I have grown as an individual and as a Child of God. and yet i continue to grow, and learn daily.

I ask everyone  who just so happens to come along my blog, to Pray. Pray to find truth (even if you think you already found it)
Search the scriptures, come with a open heart and mind to seek the truth and to find happiness.
I know the church and the Scriptures will do just that.
I came with a opened heart, and Mind and i found truth. It may be hard to go against what your family believes, but i promise if you endure to the end, oh how it is worth it. 
 Read the stories of those who were lost, and then were found by the grace of our savior.
Pray to know the teachings of Him and follow in his footsteps.

I highly recommend reading the talks of this months General conference HERE
They will answer your prayers, give you comfort, and help you understand the church just a little bit more.
Listen with and open mind, be sincere when hearing the prophets talk as a mouth piece of the Lord.
the things they have to say, are what the Lord needs us to hear.
Find Joy, Find Happiness, Find Jesus.

its raining, its pouring, the dead are walking

Tonight is the season premier of The Walking Dead.
Gosh it has been a long six months.
I have been waiting for this day for a long time and it's HERE!
lets rejoice by dancing in the rain.
 It has been raining all day  and  i love it. This weather is absolutely perfect. 

As you know my BFFFFFFl came into  town for four days, and my goodness those four days have been magical. She's more then my best friend. She is my sister. I would be so Lost without her. we have  been through EVERYTHING together. Since we were in the seventh grade we have been the best of friends. She is uhmazing and I can't wait to see her again. I miss you like crazy baby girl! To infinity and beyond.  

Late night blogging, and Halloween cupcakes

 

That' right there ^^^ is a girls best friend when her two main peeps are out of the state.

Yay for being a loner.

 

// Im a workaholic and have nothing better to do

 

//My best friend will be here in three days. im a little excited

 

//My other best friend wrote me the best letter. it was all I needed to hear

 

//My late night cravings are getting ridiculous

 

//The gospel is the center of my life

 

//general conference was uhhmazing

 

// oh and this song

Called to Serve

This is it! The time has come! I Have decided to Serve a LDS Mission! I beyond excited!
When I first got baptized I thought, oh a mission is the right thing to do. but as time past I felt like it just wasn't for me and  left it alone. Lately I haven't been able to get away from the mission topic. It has been in everything that I do, from work, scripture study, to church and my family. it keeps coming up. so I prayed. a lot.  I had a lot of people saying a little prayer for me too. and I could help but feel the spirit every time I would ask if a mission is right for me. It was hard to deny it after that point. I just knew that the tie has come, and a mission is in my future.
                         As I entered my bishops office, he had no idea what I was about to say to him. I had no idea HOW I was going to start the conversation.
we sat down, I took a deep breath and just told him "bishop, I want to serve a mission, and I know it will take a year but I want to do it I KNOW its for me and I want to share the Lords word with those who haven't had a chance to hear it"
 He was so shocked and just as excited as I was. We talked for a little bit about it and then we were figuring out all the dates,
I am going to get endowed On July 22,2014 and I'm still going to pray about it but my availability date will be July 24, 2014
 Its so amazing how things can change so fast. 6 months ago i would have never of seen myself getting baptized let alone going on a mission. I wouldn't even talk about the church! Now all i ever want to do is talk about how true and amazing the church is to everyone! The church can bring so much happiness to your life. And i want everyone to feel that joy, that excitement, that comfort that i have felt.
           Its going to be hard. and by i hard i mean EXTREMELY DIFFICULT. I don't have the support from my family like most missionaries do, so I'm on my own.I have a wonderful ward family and close friends who are being my support group. I'm so thankful for each and everyone of them!
I Know I'm supposed to serve a mission, and i know The Lord will provide in the areas that i cant. I have faith that everything will go as its supposed to.
This next year will be hard. but worth it. it wont be east, and i know the adversary is going to be watching me like a hawk, but i can get past that., i can fight for what i know i need to be doing.  I know what is true. i am here to stay and NO ONE is going to stop me. I have Christ on my side, and that's all i need.
        Just a little bit ago, i went to a Preach My Gospel ( Missionary Handbook) discussion group. I was nervous, and excited to finally get the process started. As time went by and the Spirit grew stronger i knew i had to share a small piece of my story. i didn't understand why, but i did it. I never knew how someone Else's story could impact so many others.When the discussion ended, i was greeted by many people who sat in that group. They all told me how my testimony strengthened theirs and how brave and how any peoples lives I'm going to change just by my story.
And that is why I'm serving a mission. If i can strengthen others who are already members, i know i can help those who are not come to Christ and know the true church. I can't wait to become Sister Brenda Kuchler. When i can finally hit 'submit' on my papers and have my mission call in my hand, then i will really know that this is real. this isn't a joke.
   I want to thank everyone who has helped me get to where i am now. All of you Missionaries who are serving The Lord, You are amazing. Stay strong and keep doing what your doing. I cant wait to be by  your side serving our Heavenly father and sharing his Word with those who don't know it.

And he's off

Had to say 'see you later to this handsome missionary last Monday My gosh was that the hardest thing i ever had to do. He will be the best missionary out there. I'm sure he already is.

I sent him off with this package from me.
He told me he couldn't even look at it without crying because of how much he missed me already
That letter was so long ha ha 8 pages. Poor guy had to read them all! But it said a lot. so (hopefully) it was worth it.
I got my very first email from him on Friday ont he 2nd. I was at work and i checked my phone when i got off and i say i had two new emails. when i say that they were from Elder Brennan Darger  burst into tears. Right there in the break room!! There was a new guy in there and he had no idea what to do so he got up and left ha ha it was funny.
It was so unexpected! i miss him so much and it hasn't even been a week yet! but on a good note we have 23 more fast Sundays to go!! That's something that brightened my day today when i woke up! I already wrote him an other letter. hah hes probably thinking I'm a freak. dahh welllll he already knows that, so no surprise there! I so proud of him! I'm seriously the proudest MG out there! he has come so far since i have known him! Its so hard for me still. I always go to my phone to text him and tell him something that went on that i would normally share with him. But now i get to write it in a letter and wait till he writes back. 
I miss s voice so much. I cant even imagine how his mom is feeling about it. 
Mental note to me: GO VISIT HIS FAMILY
i miss them. they are the best, i need to go see them!
i cant wait till he gets back and is here with me. in real life. I will be the happiest girl in the world! soon that day will be here before i know it! please hurry up though? this girl is impatient.
I'm so very proud of him. and i miss him dearly. St. Louis is so lucky to have you! Go get them babe! you've already saved my life i know you can save others! Love you most my handsome missionary.

My new beggining

July 20, 2013 was the best day of my life.
I got baptized into the one true church. The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.
The spirit that was in that room was undeniable. it was so strong. Everyone was filled with emotion and the spirit.

Being able to have my best friend baptize me was so amazing. He was the one who saved my life. He has been with me through everything. i don't know where i would be with out him.
actually, i do know. I would be on a dark and dreary path.
I thank out Lord everyday for him. For him coming into my life and sharing the light of the Lord with me. His Spirit is so radiant.
He is leaving in 10 days to go serve the people in the Missouri, Saint Louis Mission. I know he is going to change peoples lives like he changed mine.

After the baptism my immersion was done, and me and him walked into the hallway, we took a moment by ourselves. all soaking wet we hugged, and cried. it was such an amazing feeling. to be wiped clean of all my sins, my past is gone. i gave myself to the Lord. I am his disciple on this  earth.
somehow i will change lives to see the truth and come to him and his church.


All day i kept being told how much different  look. How i was GLOWING, and how happy i seemed.
Knowing that people can actually see a difference in how i look means so much to me. it just makes me realize that i did do the right thing. I Know i belong in the church. Everyone belongs, they just need to find it. Find happiness, Find truth, Find your Heavenly Father.

 Every battle i have had,  I have overcome with the Lord. Every Problem i run into i turn to the Lord. With him you can do anything.
He will listen. He will do all he can to make you go the right way once again.

 I Know our Heavenly Father shines down on all of us. Even when we feel like Hes not there, that's when he is the closest. He knows when we need him, He knows when and how were struggling, and He also knows how much we need him.
All we need to do it let him in. Open your eyes and see what He has done in your life.
If you were to look around and find  Five things The Our Lord hasn't done, i would tell you you are crazy. Because you aren't opening your eyes! Every thread  on the couch, every pixel on the T.V., every blade of grass Our Lord has made. He is surrounding us. all the things we take for granted, the wind on a hot day, the rain to nourish our lawns, and plants. He is there.
Ask upon him and he will answer. He hears your prayers. I know he hears mine. When i thought he wasn't listening, He was setting me up for success. All the little things was leading me to where i am today. a Member of the true church.




In 10 days my best friend is leaving for 730 days.He has blessed my life in so many ways.  He had is farewell talk today and he did amazing! I knew he would, He is just plain amazing in general.
This week i will be going to the Temple for my first time. And he will be there with me. baptizing me for the people in the afterlife who didn't have he opportunity here on earth, but chose it later in there life, after passing away. I know that too will be such an incredible experience to have before he leaves.

I Know the church is true. If you have questions. Pray. He hears you. I know the Book of Mormon is a true testament of Jesus Christ. I go to it for comfort, to feel the spirit when I'm feeling lost.
I know the missionaries all over the world are doing the right thing. they are leaving their family for a short time so that others may be with their families for eternity.
The church is amazing. The church is true. Open your eyes and you will see it too. Find truth, find love. Find Christ.

This is it

It has been a crazy couple months. 
I have decided to get baptized, well re-baptized in my case, into the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.
I'm SO excited. I have decided to Have the one and only Brennan to baptize me. Its going to be such an amazing experience for both of us. He will have a baptism under his belt before he even leaves on his mission! how cool is that?!
At first it seemed like it was all going so fast. I prayed about getting baptized and my answer shocked me and the missionaries!
When they asked " Brenda, have you prayed about getting baptized?"
and when my response was " yes, and i got a date. July 20. Only 3 weeks away."
Every ones reaction in the room was the same. we were all jaw dropped, shocked.

When i prayed to the Lord and i got that answer. I remember saying " Lord, are you kidding? I'll be ready in three weeks? THREE WEEKS Lord. that seems impossible."

but of course HE knows all and it wasn't impossible.
i grew so fast in just that week. when i figured out that the church is true, it wasn't like a hit a brick wall and angles appeared to me.
it took awhile, but when i got my answer, i just knew. i knew i needed to get baptized, i knew i needed to stop all the wrong things that i was doing. I knew i needed to become a member into the true church.

and that's what I'm doing. in Six days i will be baptized. i will be given the gift of the Holy ghost. I will be surrounded by the people i        love, and the people who love and support me.

The hardest part of this whole thing has been my family.
They have made this so hard. But i knew it would be. just.. not this hard.
From my family being ex-members and me even looking into the church is a big no-no, So you can only imagine when i told them Ive decided to get baptized.
It went a little like this.
Them Yelling at me, not letting mt state my point, and me hurting in the end.
But i know its a test. The adversary doesn't want me to do this. and he will do anything to stop me. even if it meant breaking the bond of my family.  I pray constantly and read The Book of Mormon every chance i get. i know if i Keep Jesus in my life i will be blessed and comforted by his word.

I'm ready. I'm so ready for July 20 to get here. I'm ready to be baptized into the one true church. I'm more then ready to receive the Holy Ghost. 

The church is true. If you have questions, ask them. pray to the Lord first. Ask him directly. HE answers prayers, the Little ones, and the big ones.  Ask missionaries, ask members of the church. Ask all the questions. learn about the church, and i promise you will find truth. You will find joy, happiness. you will be relieved.
I'm not even a member yet, and i haven't had that many experiences with the church yet, but i can tell you one thing, Jesus Christ knows what you have gone through. he feels what you are feeling. he knows how hurt you are, how hard life is right now, be He also knows how happy you can be. how happy you will be. Just turn to Him and all things all possible
3 Nephi 27:29 "Therefore, ask, and ye shall receive; knock, and it shall be opened unto you; for he that asketh, receiveth; and unto him that knocketh, it shall be opened."

Don't be afraid to ask, let Him know you are wanting to know the truth. Don't be let down. don't let the world take you under, Go to God, go to His word and his teachings and you will find comfort, just like i did. 
Find the truth. Find Jesus.

June 2. 2013

So a lot has been going on lately. {sorry for the lack of attention} But i have a good excuse.
I got in to a lovely accident this last weekend.
Look at this
{i did get a new phone out of it though}

So since my car was going to cost more to fix it then it was worth i decided i needed to buy a new car. So i went down and bought a car the same day. i got this beauty. A Mazda 3. it is absolutely gorgeous inside and out. i couldn't be more happy with this purchase. of course I'm going to be paying for it in payments and insurance but it is so worth it. It is exactly what i was looking for and i got a fantastic deal on it. Thanks to the one and only Brennan for helping me move my process along faster then expected. I'm extremely happy with my new car.

Something else has been happening {i know what else could go on in my life } But i ensure you that this is a good thing. a very good thing.

i have fallen for this boy. He's not like every other guy on the block. He is different. He makes me feel like i have never felt before. he makes me so frustrated sometimes but once i take one look at him i cant help but smile. He always listens to me complaining about work, and the "wonderful" things that come along with it.

He is absolutely a guy i can see myself with Five, Twenty, even Eighty years down the road with. 

We just have one problem. We have different views on religion. He is Mormon, I'm not.
but we make it work somehow. i can say that i don't know if we will be together 2-3 years from now, so  I'm living in the moment and taking every chance i can get to spend with this amazing human being.

He is leaving for his LDS Mission soon

i don't have a clue what I'm going to do without him

Probably go to the zoo a lot {I've been wanting to go so badly}

But i also cant wait to send him care packages and letters all the time. 

The craftiness in me will soon be coming out. {and I'm ecstatic}

There are things that i cant help but think about. because he is my missionary {or at least i like think he is}

//what if he forgets me

//what if he finds a girl in the city of saint Louis and falls in love {then I'll be getting the "dear John" letter}

//what if he changes into a different person then the guy i know now

//i know he will change in  good way, but i just hope he will always remember me

// what if he doesn't like me once he comes back

All if these things and more are constantly running through my mind but i cant worry about these things. because things happen for a reason, and if me and him are supposed to work out, then in the end everything will fall into place, and if not then it wont, and we will move on and go on with life.

 I'm extremely happy with where i am in life right now. I have a wonderful family, amazing Friends, a beautiful new car, a job i love and hate all at the same time, I'm growing up, and i hope the people around me are proud.
I'm just glad i get to spend this time in my life with the one person i always wanted to do it with.

Thank you Brennan for always being here for me. i know I'm a handful at times but you seem to handle me with such ease. You're an amazing guy and any girl would be lucky to have you int heir life like you are in mine. You are going to be a great missionary when the time is right to leave you will also know that as well. i just know how awesome of a person you are now and  cant even imagine what you'll be like doing work. thank you for all you do. and again thank you for wrecking my car.

Love always.

       Brenda xoxo

its a crazy life o' mine

life blows.
being an adult is stressful
()i have successfully stressed myself sick.
()work is crazy. i didnt get the promotion, so now i need to be looking for a part time job to get the bills payed, with a little extra to keep saving to a new car.
() my car is slowly dying on me. i need a new car A.S.A.P.
()were moving. its crazy. seeing 13 years of your life be put into boxes and being moved to one house to an other is a strange feeling.
()living quite a ways from everyone and everything is going to be weird. i have definitely been taking all my 2 minute drives to the grocery store for advantage.
() im loosing friends slowly. my two main people are going. Kim is out in cali, Brennan in leaving in a month to go on his mish, i dont know what im going to do with myself. work my life away i guess. and become super fit
() i am a girl and girls tend to over-think all the little things.
() money is stressful. I wish i was a millionaire.
             any ways.. My birthday was awhile ago and it was splendid.
Kim was here, we went to St. George for the day and got our tan on. we went cliff jumping, ate some amazing Asian food from hilarious Asian people.
the next day we had our bestfirend photo shoot. it went  amazing. i cannot wait to see hoe they all turned out. Gubler Photography. check them out. they are great.
And then Monday was my birthday. it was a great day spent with family and friends.
im lucky to share my birthday with my wonderful older brother. 2 years apart, born on the same day. its kind of a big deal.
Here are some pictures of my wonderful birthday weekend (even though they are a tad bit late.oops)

another pointless blogpost.

 

HAPPY EASTER!

He is risen! he is risen indeed!

church today was excellent. pastor steve does  an amazing job at getting the word across to EVERYONE.

It was a good way to start out the morning of this glorious day.

so im going to change up my hair a little bit. i cant wait. i will post pictures when i doooo!

my birthday is in 22 days. 19 here i come!

kim will be here in 2 weeks.

im FREAKING out. i miss her! i cannot wait til she gets here. that day too, will be glorious. 

just in a different way.

i have s hopping problem

the first step is addmitting you have an addiction. and i addmit to it freely.

its bad. and it needs to stop. 

ive decided that when i get the urge tos hop i will go running/working out.

so by next week i should be able to run 5 marathons in 1 hour right? 

not okay.

i bought new shampoo and conditioner. Redken. teh gold bottle.

i love it.

one use and my hair feels 10 times healthier. 

that was a good 50 dollars spent. 

(yikes)

this post was dumb and it waisted a good 5 minutes of my life that i wont be getting back.

byeeee!

loud music and warm summer nights

i cant get enough. just cant get enough.. of BRENNAN! he is totes perf. even though he is leaving on his mission in almost 2 months! not ok. but its fine i guess. its what he wants to do so whatevs, i support him (:
we took a lovely jont to the pond/lake thing the other day its was sooo nice. the weather was amazing, the view was great and the boy was even better. he has done a lot for me and i cant thank him enough. he is always here for me when i need anything. a shoulder to cry on, someone to just ramble too, someone to vent about my day to, someone to take shopping with me because my main chick is in cali, soomeone to go to lunch, dinner, with. he is all around my guy. my person i can count to to come running when i need him.
we had a hickup in the road a bit ago. but thats over now and things are better then ever. were cute we know. we dont you telling us. but it sure is nice to hear (:

and she, my fellow blogger people, is the bestie that lives in cali. we skyper almost erryday. i cant get enough of her lovely face and our hillarious random topics. you betcha we'll be making a vlogg when shes out here. it'll be steller. just you wait. this picture is super crappy but it sau i miss u on the paper that she is so nicely creeping behind. whhhhy does she have to be so far away?! gahhh so dumb. but shes a beaut. and i love her.

were getting pictures done when she comes out here. i cant wait! i'll be greeeat.

SOOO its almost my birthday. ooonneee month away!! i cant wait. whoop whoop! 19 here i come!
i bought new shoes today. i love them. i cant wait till they get here. because they are cute, i think they'll make me want to work out more. (i hope)
well luhhh youu! byeee!

make it rain!

money money money.
i work full time,
my only day of f is sunday, so you betcha im going to be staying out late tonight (hopefully) partying it up.

KIM IS COMING HERE FOR MY BIRTHDAY!
im just a little bit excited.
scratch that
im a lot excited.

were going to st George for a day. we will definitely be by the pool the ENTIRE time.
pictures the next, then my birthday!! i cant wait.
i love her.
lots and lotss.

i need my best friend.
shes the only one who truly understands my whole life and all my problems, and what i do and why i do it.
she is my sister from an other mister. and i love her.
did i mention that i love her??

i have too many clothes.
there i said it.
its bad. i dont have any more room to put them!
i need a gigantic closet.


when im rich i will build i HUGE closet. 
and i'll buy more shoes.
like i need anymore right?

i feel good. that last post i just needed to rant. and i feel better now.
thank you blogger for being my open diary for the world
gahh
 p.s. if you live in utah and need pictures hit up Gubler Photography.
they rock,
and they are priced very well.
and they will make you laugh no doubt.

love you all
byyeeee