Called to Serve

This is it! The time has come! I Have decided to Serve a LDS Mission! I beyond excited!
When I first got baptized I thought, oh a mission is the right thing to do. but as time past I felt like it just wasn't for me and  left it alone. Lately I haven't been able to get away from the mission topic. It has been in everything that I do, from work, scripture study, to church and my family. it keeps coming up. so I prayed. a lot.  I had a lot of people saying a little prayer for me too. and I could help but feel the spirit every time I would ask if a mission is right for me. It was hard to deny it after that point. I just knew that the tie has come, and a mission is in my future.
                         As I entered my bishops office, he had no idea what I was about to say to him. I had no idea HOW I was going to start the conversation.
we sat down, I took a deep breath and just told him "bishop, I want to serve a mission, and I know it will take a year but I want to do it I KNOW its for me and I want to share the Lords word with those who haven't had a chance to hear it"
 He was so shocked and just as excited as I was. We talked for a little bit about it and then we were figuring out all the dates,
I am going to get endowed On July 22,2014 and I'm still going to pray about it but my availability date will be July 24, 2014
 Its so amazing how things can change so fast. 6 months ago i would have never of seen myself getting baptized let alone going on a mission. I wouldn't even talk about the church! Now all i ever want to do is talk about how true and amazing the church is to everyone! The church can bring so much happiness to your life. And i want everyone to feel that joy, that excitement, that comfort that i have felt.
           Its going to be hard. and by i hard i mean EXTREMELY DIFFICULT. I don't have the support from my family like most missionaries do, so I'm on my own.I have a wonderful ward family and close friends who are being my support group. I'm so thankful for each and everyone of them!
I Know I'm supposed to serve a mission, and i know The Lord will provide in the areas that i cant. I have faith that everything will go as its supposed to.
This next year will be hard. but worth it. it wont be east, and i know the adversary is going to be watching me like a hawk, but i can get past that., i can fight for what i know i need to be doing.  I know what is true. i am here to stay and NO ONE is going to stop me. I have Christ on my side, and that's all i need.
        Just a little bit ago, i went to a Preach My Gospel ( Missionary Handbook) discussion group. I was nervous, and excited to finally get the process started. As time went by and the Spirit grew stronger i knew i had to share a small piece of my story. i didn't understand why, but i did it. I never knew how someone Else's story could impact so many others.When the discussion ended, i was greeted by many people who sat in that group. They all told me how my testimony strengthened theirs and how brave and how any peoples lives I'm going to change just by my story.
And that is why I'm serving a mission. If i can strengthen others who are already members, i know i can help those who are not come to Christ and know the true church. I can't wait to become Sister Brenda Kuchler. When i can finally hit 'submit' on my papers and have my mission call in my hand, then i will really know that this is real. this isn't a joke.
   I want to thank everyone who has helped me get to where i am now. All of you Missionaries who are serving The Lord, You are amazing. Stay strong and keep doing what your doing. I cant wait to be by  your side serving our Heavenly father and sharing his Word with those who don't know it.

And he's off

Had to say 'see you later to this handsome missionary last Monday My gosh was that the hardest thing i ever had to do. He will be the best missionary out there. I'm sure he already is.

I sent him off with this package from me.
He told me he couldn't even look at it without crying because of how much he missed me already
That letter was so long ha ha 8 pages. Poor guy had to read them all! But it said a lot. so (hopefully) it was worth it.
I got my very first email from him on Friday ont he 2nd. I was at work and i checked my phone when i got off and i say i had two new emails. when i say that they were from Elder Brennan Darger  burst into tears. Right there in the break room!! There was a new guy in there and he had no idea what to do so he got up and left ha ha it was funny.
It was so unexpected! i miss him so much and it hasn't even been a week yet! but on a good note we have 23 more fast Sundays to go!! That's something that brightened my day today when i woke up! I already wrote him an other letter. hah hes probably thinking I'm a freak. dahh welllll he already knows that, so no surprise there! I so proud of him! I'm seriously the proudest MG out there! he has come so far since i have known him! Its so hard for me still. I always go to my phone to text him and tell him something that went on that i would normally share with him. But now i get to write it in a letter and wait till he writes back. 
I miss s voice so much. I cant even imagine how his mom is feeling about it. 
Mental note to me: GO VISIT HIS FAMILY
i miss them. they are the best, i need to go see them!
i cant wait till he gets back and is here with me. in real life. I will be the happiest girl in the world! soon that day will be here before i know it! please hurry up though? this girl is impatient.
I'm so very proud of him. and i miss him dearly. St. Louis is so lucky to have you! Go get them babe! you've already saved my life i know you can save others! Love you most my handsome missionary.