June 2. 2013

So a lot has been going on lately. {sorry for the lack of attention} But i have a good excuse.
I got in to a lovely accident this last weekend.
Look at this
{i did get a new phone out of it though}

So since my car was going to cost more to fix it then it was worth i decided i needed to buy a new car. So i went down and bought a car the same day. i got this beauty. A Mazda 3. it is absolutely gorgeous inside and out. i couldn't be more happy with this purchase. of course I'm going to be paying for it in payments and insurance but it is so worth it. It is exactly what i was looking for and i got a fantastic deal on it. Thanks to the one and only Brennan for helping me move my process along faster then expected. I'm extremely happy with my new car.

Something else has been happening {i know what else could go on in my life } But i ensure you that this is a good thing. a very good thing.

i have fallen for this boy. He's not like every other guy on the block. He is different. He makes me feel like i have never felt before. he makes me so frustrated sometimes but once i take one look at him i cant help but smile. He always listens to me complaining about work, and the "wonderful" things that come along with it.

He is absolutely a guy i can see myself with Five, Twenty, even Eighty years down the road with. 

We just have one problem. We have different views on religion. He is Mormon, I'm not.
but we make it work somehow. i can say that i don't know if we will be together 2-3 years from now, so  I'm living in the moment and taking every chance i can get to spend with this amazing human being.

He is leaving for his LDS Mission soon

i don't have a clue what I'm going to do without him

Probably go to the zoo a lot {I've been wanting to go so badly}

But i also cant wait to send him care packages and letters all the time. 

The craftiness in me will soon be coming out. {and I'm ecstatic}

There are things that i cant help but think about. because he is my missionary {or at least i like think he is}

//what if he forgets me

//what if he finds a girl in the city of saint Louis and falls in love {then I'll be getting the "dear John" letter}

//what if he changes into a different person then the guy i know now

//i know he will change in  good way, but i just hope he will always remember me

// what if he doesn't like me once he comes back

All if these things and more are constantly running through my mind but i cant worry about these things. because things happen for a reason, and if me and him are supposed to work out, then in the end everything will fall into place, and if not then it wont, and we will move on and go on with life.

 I'm extremely happy with where i am in life right now. I have a wonderful family, amazing Friends, a beautiful new car, a job i love and hate all at the same time, I'm growing up, and i hope the people around me are proud.
I'm just glad i get to spend this time in my life with the one person i always wanted to do it with.

Thank you Brennan for always being here for me. i know I'm a handful at times but you seem to handle me with such ease. You're an amazing guy and any girl would be lucky to have you int heir life like you are in mine. You are going to be a great missionary when the time is right to leave you will also know that as well. i just know how awesome of a person you are now and  cant even imagine what you'll be like doing work. thank you for all you do. and again thank you for wrecking my car.

Love always.

       Brenda xoxo