boy oh boy

I love my boyfriend. we are definitely past "the honey moon stage" but that doesn't mean were not still madly in love with each other..

We have grown up along side each other in the last 3 years. instead of going to seven peaks dances, were at home watching TV. calming down from a long day at work.

instead of going to "clubs" were looking at home goods

instead of driving at midnight "car flirting" were fast asleep. (sometimes in each others arms)

We have grown up together and i love it.

my mother keeps saying i am growing up too fast. but i have lived my teenage life.

i've done drugs, i have been drunk, i use to stay up alll night with friends, i have snuck out, i have dated a vast majority of immature guys.

i want to grow up. i like having responsibilities. i like going to bed early.

For those of you who are reading this and are thinking" ohh this poor girl, she doesn't even know what life is all about."

your right. i don't. but that's because i haven't been an adult yet. i live in my parents house. they pay the bills. they cook me food. but i want to do all that by myself, and with Cody.

i know i might be broke in the future and figuring out what to sell to pay rent, or electricity. deciding if its gas or food for a week. i understand what comes along with being an independent adult. but im excited to grow up.

im 18 and i want to be married. i have always wanted a fancy big wedding, but i now think i just want a cute wedding and reception. why go all fancy and spend all this money and put all the stress on our families.

It will be a big wedding and reception with all the people that will be attending. but that doesn't mean i have to go all out.

I'll go to DI and buy used books, vases, decor. i just want to be with my best friend for the rest of our lives. i want our family's to be joined together by marriage. i want a stupid piece of paper saying its legal. i want rings so people can see ive made this commitment to the one i love forever.

all is good. im just glad i got lucky and met my true one when i did. im glad we grew up together and still growing as two people. i guess lets just enjoy where we are today and see where the future takes us.