unplanned

nothing in my life goes as planned. 

for one, i was planning on going to take my CNA class, but i cant. too many things i need to pay for first.

Second, that whole we want to move out asap? well it has changed. again.

we are probably just gonna wait untill were married because of al lthe things we need to pay for now. 

but who knows, that might change again. just give it time.

My externship. i wanted to do it in May of this year. and i looked and looked and looked for one, but no one was accepting any. so i stopped looking for one and got a job. but now i need to find one so i can be making more money doing something i really enjoy doing and have a carrere not just a "job"

i Just want so many things all at once. i cant learn to just slow down and enjoy the now. i love my life. i just wish it all went the way i wanted it to. without all of this changing. and i wish money grew on trees. (but doesnt everybody?)

life will still go on. things changing from one thing to another. is that normal though? does this happen in other peoples lives too? you plan on one thing then the next day its something totally different? or is it just me and my life? yikes. next thing you'll know i'll be pregnant and nothing will be as I planned. SIKE! i sure hope not :/

well im gonna go back to my crazy life that never stays the way i want. buh bye