This is it

It has been a crazy couple months. 
I have decided to get baptized, well re-baptized in my case, into the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.
I'm SO excited. I have decided to Have the one and only Brennan to baptize me. Its going to be such an amazing experience for both of us. He will have a baptism under his belt before he even leaves on his mission! how cool is that?!
At first it seemed like it was all going so fast. I prayed about getting baptized and my answer shocked me and the missionaries!
When they asked " Brenda, have you prayed about getting baptized?"
and when my response was " yes, and i got a date. July 20. Only 3 weeks away."
Every ones reaction in the room was the same. we were all jaw dropped, shocked.

When i prayed to the Lord and i got that answer. I remember saying " Lord, are you kidding? I'll be ready in three weeks? THREE WEEKS Lord. that seems impossible."

but of course HE knows all and it wasn't impossible.
i grew so fast in just that week. when i figured out that the church is true, it wasn't like a hit a brick wall and angles appeared to me.
it took awhile, but when i got my answer, i just knew. i knew i needed to get baptized, i knew i needed to stop all the wrong things that i was doing. I knew i needed to become a member into the true church.

and that's what I'm doing. in Six days i will be baptized. i will be given the gift of the Holy ghost. I will be surrounded by the people i        love, and the people who love and support me.

The hardest part of this whole thing has been my family.
They have made this so hard. But i knew it would be. just.. not this hard.
From my family being ex-members and me even looking into the church is a big no-no, So you can only imagine when i told them Ive decided to get baptized.
It went a little like this.
Them Yelling at me, not letting mt state my point, and me hurting in the end.
But i know its a test. The adversary doesn't want me to do this. and he will do anything to stop me. even if it meant breaking the bond of my family.  I pray constantly and read The Book of Mormon every chance i get. i know if i Keep Jesus in my life i will be blessed and comforted by his word.

I'm ready. I'm so ready for July 20 to get here. I'm ready to be baptized into the one true church. I'm more then ready to receive the Holy Ghost. 

The church is true. If you have questions, ask them. pray to the Lord first. Ask him directly. HE answers prayers, the Little ones, and the big ones.  Ask missionaries, ask members of the church. Ask all the questions. learn about the church, and i promise you will find truth. You will find joy, happiness. you will be relieved.
I'm not even a member yet, and i haven't had that many experiences with the church yet, but i can tell you one thing, Jesus Christ knows what you have gone through. he feels what you are feeling. he knows how hurt you are, how hard life is right now, be He also knows how happy you can be. how happy you will be. Just turn to Him and all things all possible
3 Nephi 27:29 "Therefore, ask, and ye shall receive; knock, and it shall be opened unto you; for he that asketh, receiveth; and unto him that knocketh, it shall be opened."

Don't be afraid to ask, let Him know you are wanting to know the truth. Don't be let down. don't let the world take you under, Go to God, go to His word and his teachings and you will find comfort, just like i did. 
Find the truth. Find Jesus.